Scratches

They are scratched into my skin
its a picture which isn't finished
my tattoos
I never mind the pain
I love it
it exhales my inner pain
they mean something
things I only can explain
maybe one day i will
but before I have to do it again
soon
Another piece of the puzzle
I need to have that rush again
the sound of the machine
the smell of the antiseptic
smell of my blood
I know
once I smelled it
I can't stop
The picture needs to be finished

©US MMVII

Speed

On a nice summer day
there am I on the motorway
free road in front of me
i twist the gas grip
she speeds up
i can see the speedo running
at 8000 rpm the ram air gives another kick
like a turbo kicking in
i can feel my blood pumping
i feel the sweat pearls on my forehead
a little dot far in front
appears in seconds as a car next to me
tunnelvision
my blood pumps even faster
I can hear my heart pulsing
she still accelerates
a millisecond glimpse
at the speedo
290kph
wow
traffic builds up
i am slowing down
next service station I stop
i lay down on the grass
wow
I am exhausted like after good sex
just want to chill
--
lets do it again

©US MMII

Fists

here i am standing
my fist bleeding
i cant hear anything
just my breathing and my hart
what just happened
trying to recap
he insulted me
he pushed my girl
now he's on the ground
his face full of blood
i can hear
people cheering
they stand next to me
but it sounds like they are
far away
cheering to who?
I look for my girl
lets go
we walk
on the way
my hearing comes back
I can hear sirens
cut through the gardens
dark
we sit down behind hedges
more sirens
we wake up with the first
sun rays cutting through the dark
my hands full of dried blood
he was known for this
now
he wont do that again
broken nose and one tooth
--
nobody saw anything

©US MCMXCV

Today

I like the sun
not too hot
I like sun following rain
Sun in the rain
I like sun in the snow
not melting it tough
I like sun in the cold
warming you slow
but
My live is layers
in different shades of grey
I want to be in day
wouldn't mind night
but I am stuck in dusk
I want to be on the north pole
but I am in the Antarctic
I want to have fire
but there only ashes
I want to be on a sunny beach
but I'm in the dessert
I want to accelerate
But I am slowing down

©US MCMXCVIII