Another day gone, wasted away

I done nothing

phone off

I wont answer the door

so many things to do

but

I just done the necessary evil

I am losing myself in my daydreams

staring at the white ceiling

they are like episodes

can last for hours

its like I life in another world 

another life

a better world

a better life

These dreams make me happy

I create my own perfect environment

so nice so beautiful 

just fun

but then

I'm back to reality

and back to the

boring, depressing tristesse

of my daily life

The better my imaginative world

the worst is the comedown after

Never have a déjà vu of those dreams

Maybe one day......

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Hate & Love

Hate & Love
Without Love there is no Hate
You Love to Hate
You Hate to Love
Love = Hate
or
Hate = Love
If you love something so much
coincidentally you will
Hate something
Nobody is without Hate
but
Some are without Love!
The Love to your god makes you Hate mine.
but
The Hate for your god doesn't make me Love mine!
My Hate sometimes transforms into Love
sometimes my Love transforms into Hate
How?
I don't know.
Love nourishes Hate
Hate nourishes Love

I can't live without either of 'em

©US MMVI

OFF!

Off

Its switched off
my tenacity
the fire is out
my batteries are empty

All I want is to drive
drive into the evening sun
but I am chained
i am a prisoner

imprisoned by myself
when did it come to this
why
I smile but
I laugh but

but
is this me
I need to go back
back to find myself
to unlock these chaines
to defeat what brought me here

Its drawn in my skin
But the picture is not finished
I need to draw another chapter
It will be epic

Its coming
the big good bye
good bye
to what I know
good bye
to what I loved

Everything changes
I havent
Deep in me I am still the same
The chains left their marks
But they've not
broken me

I need to find
a new adventure
a new thrill
a new life

Sometimes you have to demolish a house
to build a new one
it will take time to build
but this will be bigger
and it will last longer
if not forever.

Lets start
remove the first brick

©US MMX

Dreaming

I am dreaming while I am awake
Even while doing things
while speaking to you
while working...

But I rarely dream when I sleep

Sometimes I can be far away

my mind journeys are endless

in time and spaces

I can see scenarios
as if they are real

I can smell things
feel them

My imagination is endless

It scares me

I saw things actually happen

sometimes its nice

I saw people die
I saw new life

People I love,
People I don't know
& me

Déjà vu
I never know how it ends

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LIFE

What does it mean, what is it for??
The story of my life....
is what??
There are so many things..
many things I dream of...
..I want
I know my limits
I know I could have been better
in many ways
but
Adding it up
I pretty much love where I am
..with my life
soon there will be
2,3 or 4 little monkeys
I have my little family
I have a car
my bike
the next step is settling down
I never was the career type
I know, if I had wanted it.....
if I want it
I could be far better off
but I love my family
my private time
that means the world to me
My family, my friends
anything else
can
fuck right off
even if your life knocks you down
get back up and
Just life the life you love
I do

©US MMX

Memories

I seen things
I wont forget
I done things
I wont regret
But there are lots of things
I do regret
and
I want forget

I cant
The inner pain
from time to time
it haunts me
try's to eat me
I fight back
I stand back up
I fear the day
when I will be weak
I cannot loose
but I know
one day I will

I need to breath
to breath fresh
and clean air
All I can smell
is my slowly
rotten soul

Its summer
but
I'm cold
everything I touch
freezes
I can see the fire
I can feel the flames
but I am cold
Where will the path end

©US MMVIII

You

I would be lying
there are more beautiful women
than you
but this objective
there are women
who would maybe
suit me more
than you
maybe some women
would understand
me more
than you
but there is nothing else
I want more
than you
I love you
sometimes its
inexplainable
sometimes I
hurt
sometimes you do
sometimes I
hate
sometimes you do
but always I
love
you
I know i am difficult
and
so are you
but in some ways
nothing thrives me more
than you
After the tristesse of daily
routine
there is nothing else
I want more
than you!

©US MMX