OFF!

Off

Its switched off
my tenacity
the fire is out
my batteries are empty

All I want is to drive
drive into the evening sun
but I am chained
i am a prisoner

imprisoned by myself
when did it come to this
why
I smile but
I laugh but

but
is this me
I need to go back
back to find myself
to unlock these chaines
to defeat what brought me here

Its drawn in my skin
But the picture is not finished
I need to draw another chapter
It will be epic

Its coming
the big good bye
good bye
to what I know
good bye
to what I loved

Everything changes
I havent
Deep in me I am still the same
The chains left their marks
But they've not
broken me

I need to find
a new adventure
a new thrill
a new life

Sometimes you have to demolish a house
to build a new one
it will take time to build
but this will be bigger
and it will last longer
if not forever.

Lets start
remove the first brick

©US MMX

Dreaming

I am dreaming while I am awake
Even while doing things
while speaking to you
while working...

But I rarely dream when I sleep

Sometimes I can be far away

my mind journeys are endless

in time and spaces

I can see scenarios
as if they are real

I can smell things
feel them

My imagination is endless

It scares me

I saw things actually happen

sometimes its nice

I saw people die
I saw new life

People I love,
People I don't know
& me

Déjà vu
I never know how it ends

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LIFE

What does it mean, what is it for??
The story of my life....
is what??
There are so many things..
many things I dream of...
..I want
I know my limits
I know I could have been better
in many ways
but
Adding it up
I pretty much love where I am
..with my life
soon there will be
2,3 or 4 little monkeys
I have my little family
I have a car
my bike
the next step is settling down
I never was the career type
I know, if I had wanted it.....
if I want it
I could be far better off
but I love my family
my private time
that means the world to me
My family, my friends
anything else
can
fuck right off
even if your life knocks you down
get back up and
Just life the life you love
I do

©US MMX

Memories

I seen things
I wont forget
I done things
I wont regret
But there are lots of things
I do regret
and
I want forget

I cant
The inner pain
from time to time
it haunts me
try's to eat me
I fight back
I stand back up
I fear the day
when I will be weak
I cannot loose
but I know
one day I will

I need to breath
to breath fresh
and clean air
All I can smell
is my slowly
rotten soul

Its summer
but
I'm cold
everything I touch
freezes
I can see the fire
I can feel the flames
but I am cold
Where will the path end

©US MMVIII

You

I would be lying
there are more beautiful women
than you
but this objective
there are women
who would maybe
suit me more
than you
maybe some women
would understand
me more
than you
but there is nothing else
I want more
than you
I love you
sometimes its
inexplainable
sometimes I
hurt
sometimes you do
sometimes I
hate
sometimes you do
but always I
love
you
I know i am difficult
and
so are you
but in some ways
nothing thrives me more
than you
After the tristesse of daily
routine
there is nothing else
I want more
than you!

©US MMX

Four legs

Its hard
for me

it is

emotions they are for me
for me only
I can be cold as ice
like a stone
never shared a tear

Only one understands me
I dont know how
He is there for me
but I am not always there for him

I don't understand him
Sometimes I neglect him
Treat him bad
But a second after he is there for me

He is the one I share my tears
He is the one I open my heart too
He knows everything about me
My darkest secret is with him

Without him
I don't know
what would be
He doesnt need me
but I need him

Coz of him I get up
I go to work
I drag myself to do things
He is my life

Without him
I would've left it all behind
I would have run away
I might be dead

For the past 5 years
he kept me going
he knows the real me
he knows my weaknesses

He stands by my side
but
I don't always by his
No matter what I could or would
do to him
he would be there for me

Thor is the Hammer in my life

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Scratches

They are scratched into my skin
its a picture which isn't finished
my tattoos
I never mind the pain
I love it
it exhales my inner pain
they mean something
things I only can explain
maybe one day i will
but before I have to do it again
soon
Another piece of the puzzle
I need to have that rush again
the sound of the machine
the smell of the antiseptic
smell of my blood
I know
once I smelled it
I can't stop
The picture needs to be finished

©US MMVII