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Love
Once it hits you
you down and nothing you can do about that
its in you
in your blood
in your brain
in your heart
it makes you do things you usually wouldn't do
it can make you sick
it can heal
it can also kill you



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Pictures

Pictures
They fade
these days
they get lost
in gigabytes of storage
You can't even remember taking them

What stays are the pictures
in your head
they like carved into your brain
but its the bad pictures which you
never can delete
they stay with you
even haunt you
in dreams
in good times
and in bad times

You try to remember the good
ones but its hard to find them
You try, but they just won't reassemble

Its the same with memories
why people always remember the bad
things more than the good
These days with everything online
there are things written
which are beyond history
they are ancient and should be gone

©US MMVI

THX

If you've ever been fishing you know that
something bit and you start reeling it in
it seems heavy well maybe just some junk
you let it go and it starts pulling away
after some time you really convinced its a big one
you start reeling it in totally
and well its just some junk.

Like in real life
there seem these opportunities
and they seem real and this could be it
but than they're just hot air
and the bubble bursts

Disillusionment

but you really only got to blame
yourself
for not being realistic.

Anyway

THANKS FOR NOTHING!


©US MMX

The Deer Hunter

She's loaded, safety is off
you got your target locked
slowly you twist your finger
you can feel the point when
its just about to go
and than
bang
you smell the gunpowder
you hear the empty cartridge dropping
check the target and again

So much power in your hand
its easy to hit the target
even if the target is alive
I love to hunt
its been a while

©US MMX

H8

Its easy to love
but is it easy to hate?
Its easy to say you hate
but it ain't easy to actually hate.

You really have to commit yourself
commit yourself to hate something, someone
yes you say i hate but if your really hate
you don't say it that way

there are a lot of things and people I hate
and I know exactly why and how
I know somehow I always will
and it will need a wonder for me
to change it

©US MMX

Use by

everything is dated
these days
use by
best before
which one is love?

I'll guess its best before
It is fantastic up to a certain
point after that its still ok
but it starts to go bad
until the time its gone

sometimes its better to start from scratch
and
sometimes you have to kill love to get loved


©US MMX

Old Whisky

Down goes another glass of 12 year old sorrow

my mind walking down a dark alley way
in the town of my memories
its starting to rain
or is it tears, tears i haven't cried -
I haven't cried when I should have

I am going up thousand steps
until my legs hurt
or is it pain, pain I haven't felt
I haven't felt when I should have

Pour another 12 year old
Golden in colour like the sun
or is it warmth, warmth I haven't felt
I haven't felt when I should have

There is a door
should I open it or is it opening me
the door is locked, locked by a key of my soul
will I ever find it


©US MMX

Change

It is strange
strange how people change
under certain circumstances
I've seen good friends going down
just because of bad influences

Once they got to money
they thought they had to change their friends
found their new friends
gone to flashy bars, drove those expansive cars ect.
and gone the wrong way

Now their back
knocking on your door
with their live in ruins they remember you
Its always hard to say no to somebody
somebody who once was your best friend


©US MMX

Gone

The leaves falling from the trees
Its autumn
and
another year passed by
like people in a busy street
So quick
so meaningless
I cant remember their faces
like the year just passed
I can't remember many things
I just remember that yesterday was January


©US MMX

Do I?

You try to destroy my freedom
but you don't even know my war!

You try to hurt me
but you don't now my pain!

You wanna make me laugh
but you don't know that I'm sad!

You wanna make me pay
but you don't know I have no money!

You want to tell me somethin
but you don't know I don't understand!

You wanna burn me
but I'm already burned!

Think about it

Don't you think if I actually would care
about you & your problems,
You
would know all this?


©US MMX

Monkey back

There was this time where I was happy being by myself
Just very convenient
without having to consider someone else

but these days while my Macaquinha
is away
I feel lonely

the biggest help is my dog
he's keeping me good company
and it is amazing how he can sense things

Just all in all I need my monkey back!

Sometimes you just realize what you have
when its gone.

Sometimes it is just to know there is somebody in the other room..

And sometimes you just need somebody to
Love
Kiss
Argue
Pinch
Tease
Annoy
Hug
ect.

Fact is I am getting no younger
and I cant deal with certain situations as good as I used to.



©US MMX

Boys, Toys & Women

Well I gotta admit in some way I'll never grow up

A little while ago I went to Newmarket to get my Bike serviced

While waiting for it I went for a walk in the town
now I've been there before and I always walked past this toyshop

This time I went in and I loved it
I felt like a little boy at Xmas

They have all those oldschool army toys
tanks, little soldiers with bazookas ect.

That made me think
about us men and toys
we always need and will have our toys
you get older and they get bigger
and more expansive

We still buy toycars of the ones we dream of and
may never can afford
but we have one in our vitrine

Some still 'play' with toy trains, remote controlled things....

and some lucky ones have the real thing
the real cars....

And yes in some way that is also
with women

Yes we dream of that star and this singer
but realistically we will never even meet them
but we do have that Playboy pictures in our garage, locker....


There are some goals in my life

and yes I am very materialistic
and yes one day I will have that car, that house and that bike I want

But i am also realistic that I will never be with that women

So I am happy with what I have and stick to it

....... but I am gonna buy that car..............





©US MMX

Back to it

I like to be out in the nature
I got no particular preference
Mountains have it for me though

Just love to sit and watch
on my own
breath the fresh and clean air
see some animals

This is when I get my best ideas
will it be for stuff I write
for my work or
my live

Away from phone receptions
stupid peoples
and their stupid shops
just me and the nature


©US MMX

Friends & Buddies

There are many
well at least for most of us

You got the ones who are around most days
the ones you hang with
there also work friends

they are all good company
and fun

some are a necessity against
boredom and loneliness

There are also those
friends from good old times
the ones you used to play with
the ones you gone to school with
you grown up with
the ones you might went to war with
gone through thick and thin

some you haven't seen in years
lost contact with
but you know if you want you can find them

and

you know that whatever, however and whenever
you can knock on their door
and they will be there for you

These are your true friends
even if they not around

There are lots of friends I miss
some I found
some I need to find
and some have passed

I miss you guys!!

Its time to make a plan!

©US MMX

No place like home

Well these days
you may live somewhere nice
have a nice place
you settled down
have
your friends around maybe your family
or you got your own family now

but there is no place like
the place you grown up you're born

It might be to most boring city, town or village
maybe even horrible for some
but for you its beautiful

You walk down these old streets
and long forgotten memories will return
like reading a book you haven't touched in years

the place where you used to play with your friends
you used to hang out as a teen

the place where you first smoked
you got drunk
you had your first fight

your old school

the place you used to live

the place here you first kissed a girl

the old tree or bench still having
the heart with the initials of your first love
carved in

you love it no matter how it is now or it was
or it is to anybody else

I love my old town
I always will

I even got a tattoo of the towns crest


©US MMX

Make me bleed

Its amazing
how many people through the years
bullshitted their way into my life
well I gotta tell Ya somethin

FUCK YOU

I had enough of this shit
empty promises, false prophesies
people I never met wanting to be my friend
The stories they come up with
i could fill books

I believe in things I see, I know
things which I know are real

I don't need to proof myself
to anyone apart myself

I don't give a shit
what you can
who you are
who you with
good for you
but leave
me the fuck alone

you know what?
proof yourself to me
ha...
I thought so.....

I know what I can
I know who I am
I know who I wanna be

But what do you know about me?
Fucking shit

I know what I need
to live the life I want
I know what makes me happy
Well for sure its not YOU.

You wonna punch me
go on try your luck
nothing I ain't seen before
nothing I ain't felt before
but I gotta tell ya
I love the smell of blood

You think you can hurt me?
Well you don't even know my pain.

Make me bleed and you'll see.



©US MMX

Happy Dog

Is amazing

How simple it is

to make a dog happy

Simple things in life

Let him run free
he is so happy going crazy
just running
chasing birds, squirrels ect.

and smelling everywhere
and marking his 'hood'

Than some nice food
happy

A chest-rub
happy

meeting another dog
happy
meeting another dog from the opposite sex
priceless

I wish I could be that easy

©US MMX

Rain

I love rain

in the summer
it washes off the dust n' dirt
the fresh smell
smell of wet grass
wet tarmac

than the sun cuts through

but

rain in the autumn
is horrible
cold n' dark
especially
in London

the dump and
the cold
creeps into your joints

Gotta get out


©US MMX

Another day gone, wasted away

I done nothing

phone off

I wont answer the door

so many things to do

but

I just done the necessary evil

I am losing myself in my daydreams

staring at the white ceiling

they are like episodes

can last for hours

its like I life in another world 

another life

a better world

a better life

These dreams make me happy

I create my own perfect environment

so nice so beautiful 

just fun

but then

I'm back to reality

and back to the

boring, depressing tristesse

of my daily life

The better my imaginative world

the worst is the comedown after

Never have a déjà vu of those dreams

Maybe one day......

©US MMX

Hate & Love

Hate & Love
Without Love there is no Hate
You Love to Hate
You Hate to Love
Love = Hate
or
Hate = Love
If you love something so much
coincidentally you will
Hate something
Nobody is without Hate
but
Some are without Love!
The Love to your god makes you Hate mine.
but
The Hate for your god doesn't make me Love mine!
My Hate sometimes transforms into Love
sometimes my Love transforms into Hate
How?
I don't know.
Love nourishes Hate
Hate nourishes Love

I can't live without either of 'em

©US MMVI

OFF!

Off

Its switched off
my tenacity
the fire is out
my batteries are empty

All I want is to drive
drive into the evening sun
but I am chained
i am a prisoner

imprisoned by myself
when did it come to this
why
I smile but
I laugh but

but
is this me
I need to go back
back to find myself
to unlock these chaines
to defeat what brought me here

Its drawn in my skin
But the picture is not finished
I need to draw another chapter
It will be epic

Its coming
the big good bye
good bye
to what I know
good bye
to what I loved

Everything changes
I havent
Deep in me I am still the same
The chains left their marks
But they've not
broken me

I need to find
a new adventure
a new thrill
a new life

Sometimes you have to demolish a house
to build a new one
it will take time to build
but this will be bigger
and it will last longer
if not forever.

Lets start
remove the first brick

©US MMX

Dreaming

I am dreaming while I am awake
Even while doing things
while speaking to you
while working...

But I rarely dream when I sleep

Sometimes I can be far away

my mind journeys are endless

in time and spaces

I can see scenarios
as if they are real

I can smell things
feel them

My imagination is endless

It scares me

I saw things actually happen

sometimes its nice

I saw people die
I saw new life

People I love,
People I don't know
& me

Déjà vu
I never know how it ends

©US MMX

LIFE

What does it mean, what is it for??
The story of my life....
is what??
There are so many things..
many things I dream of...
..I want
I know my limits
I know I could have been better
in many ways
but
Adding it up
I pretty much love where I am
..with my life
soon there will be
2,3 or 4 little monkeys
I have my little family
I have a car
my bike
the next step is settling down
I never was the career type
I know, if I had wanted it.....
if I want it
I could be far better off
but I love my family
my private time
that means the world to me
My family, my friends
anything else
can
fuck right off
even if your life knocks you down
get back up and
Just life the life you love
I do

©US MMX

Memories

I seen things
I wont forget
I done things
I wont regret
But there are lots of things
I do regret
and
I want forget

I cant
The inner pain
from time to time
it haunts me
try's to eat me
I fight back
I stand back up
I fear the day
when I will be weak
I cannot loose
but I know
one day I will

I need to breath
to breath fresh
and clean air
All I can smell
is my slowly
rotten soul

Its summer
but
I'm cold
everything I touch
freezes
I can see the fire
I can feel the flames
but I am cold
Where will the path end

©US MMVIII

You

I would be lying
there are more beautiful women
than you
but this objective
there are women
who would maybe
suit me more
than you
maybe some women
would understand
me more
than you
but there is nothing else
I want more
than you
I love you
sometimes its
inexplainable
sometimes I
hurt
sometimes you do
sometimes I
hate
sometimes you do
but always I
love
you
I know i am difficult
and
so are you
but in some ways
nothing thrives me more
than you
After the tristesse of daily
routine
there is nothing else
I want more
than you!

©US MMX

Four legs

Its hard
for me

it is

emotions they are for me
for me only
I can be cold as ice
like a stone
never shared a tear

Only one understands me
I dont know how
He is there for me
but I am not always there for him

I don't understand him
Sometimes I neglect him
Treat him bad
But a second after he is there for me

He is the one I share my tears
He is the one I open my heart too
He knows everything about me
My darkest secret is with him

Without him
I don't know
what would be
He doesnt need me
but I need him

Coz of him I get up
I go to work
I drag myself to do things
He is my life

Without him
I would've left it all behind
I would have run away
I might be dead

For the past 5 years
he kept me going
he knows the real me
he knows my weaknesses

He stands by my side
but
I don't always by his
No matter what I could or would
do to him
he would be there for me

Thor is the Hammer in my life

©US MMX

Scratches

They are scratched into my skin
its a picture which isn't finished
my tattoos
I never mind the pain
I love it
it exhales my inner pain
they mean something
things I only can explain
maybe one day i will
but before I have to do it again
soon
Another piece of the puzzle
I need to have that rush again
the sound of the machine
the smell of the antiseptic
smell of my blood
I know
once I smelled it
I can't stop
The picture needs to be finished

©US MMVII

Speed

On a nice summer day
there am I on the motorway
free road in front of me
i twist the gas grip
she speeds up
i can see the speedo running
at 8000 rpm the ram air gives another kick
like a turbo kicking in
i can feel my blood pumping
i feel the sweat pearls on my forehead
a little dot far in front
appears in seconds as a car next to me
tunnelvision
my blood pumps even faster
I can hear my heart pulsing
she still accelerates
a millisecond glimpse
at the speedo
290kph
wow
traffic builds up
i am slowing down
next service station I stop
i lay down on the grass
wow
I am exhausted like after good sex
just want to chill
--
lets do it again

©US MMII

Fists

here i am standing
my fist bleeding
i cant hear anything
just my breathing and my hart
what just happened
trying to recap
he insulted me
he pushed my girl
now he's on the ground
his face full of blood
i can hear
people cheering
they stand next to me
but it sounds like they are
far away
cheering to who?
I look for my girl
lets go
we walk
on the way
my hearing comes back
I can hear sirens
cut through the gardens
dark
we sit down behind hedges
more sirens
we wake up with the first
sun rays cutting through the dark
my hands full of dried blood
he was known for this
now
he wont do that again
broken nose and one tooth
--
nobody saw anything

©US MCMXCV

Today

I like the sun
not too hot
I like sun following rain
Sun in the rain
I like sun in the snow
not melting it tough
I like sun in the cold
warming you slow
but
My live is layers
in different shades of grey
I want to be in day
wouldn't mind night
but I am stuck in dusk
I want to be on the north pole
but I am in the Antarctic
I want to have fire
but there only ashes
I want to be on a sunny beach
but I'm in the dessert
I want to accelerate
But I am slowing down

©US MCMXCVIII